"It's too miserable."
Lin Shicha sat outside the rooftop of a tall building, swinging her legs outside the building. She muttered to herself for a moment, then looked to the left where a huge banner was hanging outside the Dayu Tower.
"Honor Silence, the king returns!"
Above the large black letters, the Asian superstar Silence held a microphone, leaning forward with closed eyes, exuding a brilliant smile on his face.
A typical little milk dog idol.
Lin Shicha's expression became slightly absentminded as she stared at his face for a long time. Finally, she spread out her hand and her translucent blue figure was about to dissipate.
She had maintained her ghostly state for a long long time.
Lin Shicha's life had stopped in the summer of her 17 years old. Her time had ceased to flow, and the seconds on the clock had officially stopped ticking.
She sighed gently, opened her hands and plummeted toward the road below. The rushing wind brushed past her earlobes, and the sensation felt so real, she froze: "Huh?" Aren't souls supposed to be devoid of human senses like touch, taste, and smell?
The normally flat and continuous road suddenly lit up with dazzling light. She screamed and then lost consciousness.
A sharp dizziness assaulted Lin Shicha's brain, rendering her unaware of time passing. Gradually, her senses began to return.
She slowly opened her eyes and found that she was sitting in a chair. Her legs were pale and thin, and bending her knees revealed a black-and-white pleated skirt with a one-centimeter crease on her knee. Her feet were clad in black shoes.
Lin Shicha turned her head in a daze, looking around.
This wasn't...?
Suddenly, the door of the broadcasting room was forcefully kicked open, and a young man with an angry expression at the forefront appeared. He saw the girl sitting in the chair and sneered, "Lin Shicha, you're quite capable."
"Did you really scare me?" Chi Xing was about to burst in but seeing Lin Shicha looking like a frightened little deer, he resisted the urge, shouting: "You've been lying to me, do you have no conscience!!"
She remained silent, just staring at them as if she hadn't woken up yet.
Behind Chi Xing, there were three other boys. The wheat-colored boy had sweat on his forehead; he was the one who had kicked the door just now. He had a grim face, yet he said calmly, "Lin Shicha, do you have anything to say?" His tone carried a hint of calmness and disbelief.
Then, they looked at the reddish-eyed little milk dog. Despite being taller than the other three, he looked very pitiful, like a pet dog.
The last boy was tall and thin, standing on the side, with narrow and cold eyes, tightly pursing his thin lips. He wasn't wearing the school uniform; the buttons were fastened to the top, exuding an air of cold repression.
"Let her speak?!" Chi Xing yelled, his eyes turning red.
Lin Shicha stayed silent for a long time, then picked up the familiar white bag from the broadcasting room table, and said very softly, "I'm sorry, now that you've found out, let's break up."
"I mean, all four of you." Lin Shicha added, and planned to leave there, traversing in between the four of them.
Chi Xing's chest heaved violently. His drooping hand gradually clenched, and blue veins faintly appeared on the back of his hand. The next moment, he abruptly grabbed Lin Shicha's wrist, "Is this your attitude, Lin Shicha?" There was a barely noticeable hint of hurt in his red eyes, but more prominent was an overwhelming anger and restraint.
After finishing speaking, he saw her shrink her neck. He had never been angry with her, let alone yelled at her. She was scared to death, and tears immediately filled her eyes.
Late Awakening subconsciously relaxed her hand, so she panic and flee, leaving no sign behind.
With the person gone, Delayed Awakening regained her senses and kicked the door, "Damn it!!" Her tone was suppressed and resentful.
The broadcasting studio was on the third floor. Lin Shicha ran down the stairs and turned a corner to the comprehensive experimental building. She looked around as she walked, and reached out to touch her cheek.
Reborn...
Is this a thing?
Or was it that God thought her life was too short and allowed her to live again, but what is the meaning of this? In just half a year, she would die again.
Was God trying to make her re-experience the most painful half-year of her life?
In the bathroom around the corner on the first floor of the comprehensive experimental building, Lin Shicha faced a huge mirror, raised her hand to adjust her waist-length hair. The bangs on her forehead were already damp from sweat, her heart was racing, abnormally fast.
But abnormal was also correct.
Lin Shicha calmed her breathing, took out a white bottle from her bag, took two pills out and chewed them in her mouth, swallowing them without water.
Her complexion then began to improve.
The story is long, but this is the first time Lin Shicha strictly remembered her life.
Her parents divorced shortly after her birth. She was raised by her old grandmother, but because she was young and living conditions were poor, she fell ill just as she learned to walk, and her grandmother couldn't afford the surgery or the expensive medication, so she just hung in there.
In her previous life, she was going to have an operation this summer, because her grandmother had saved enough money, but unfortunately, she didn't survive the operation.
What is love?
Apart from the unconditional love and doting of her grandmother, Lin Shicha, who had been isolated and sick since childhood, had never experienced the taste of being loved by others. She admitted that she was not a good person; even if she knew that some things were wrong, she would do it to achieve her goals.
For example, Delayed Awakening, Bian Heng, and the other three boys. They were the four most outstanding boys in Shuilu town. In order to gain their favor and love, she spent different amounts of time and effort to win them over, and dated all four of them at the same time.
In her previous life, this is when she was revealed. At that time, she did not choose to explain, and later, because of an accidental illness, she went home to recuperate, and then there was the operation. She never saw the other three again.
Lin Shicha did not intentionally seek out the other three after becoming a spirit, instead, silently appearing in the corners of the city. However, it was natural for Bu Kong not to appear, he is a second-generation star; coming to study at the Shuilu Art School was just an experience, and graduating and debuting was a normal process and choice.
Unexpectedly, she returned to the scene of the car crash.
After sorting out her thoughts, Lin Shicha planned to go straight home. It was already the end of April and the weather was starting to get hot. She felt a bit cold wearing her school uniform and coat.
I wonder how my grandmother is doing?
After she died, she often watched over her grandmother. Her grandmother was lonely and had always regarded Lin Shicha as the most important person in her life. After her death, she aged ten years overnight, had difficulty getting out of bed and spent the whole day in tears. Before long, she passed away.
She was the only one who could touch Lin Shicha's heart.
Delayed Awakening and the other three left the school broadcasting room. Silent, with a bit of childishness in his voice, he said, "Shall we leave now? I wonder where Chacha went."
The leader, Delayed Awakening, did not turn back. His back was fierce and indifferent, but when he turned his head, his jawline was beautiful, and his eyes were slanted. "If you're willing to accompany her to class, then stay."
Bian Heng is a senior high school student at this school, and he didn't say anything, silently thinking about something.
The tall and thin figure of Huo Yinan spoke coldly, "I'm going back to school first. There's a debate competition next week, and my materials are not ready yet." He had always been the top student in the town, and in his white shirt, riding a bike through the town of Shuilu, he always attracted the attention and discussions of passing girls.
Delayed Awakening sneered after hearing this. As a studious student, he could not understand the attitude of these scholars who seemed to regard studying as their top priority. He even sneered at them. Delayed Awakening was also one of these people, but everyone has their own aspirations, so he said nothing.
The quiet little milk dog's doubtful voice came from behind, "Huo Yinan, aren't you upset?"
Did Huo Yinan speak? Delayed Awakening didn't pay much attention. He stopped in his tracks, and just as the figure of the girl with long hair in a washing uniform passed by the front gate.
He furrowed his brows and then frowned in annoyance, "Let's go!"
Feeling the wind against her face, Lin Shicha couldn't help but start running. After a few steps, she started feeling uncomfortable, but she didn't mind. It turned out that running felt like this. Because of her poor health, since she was sensible, she was never allowed to run because her body couldn't handle it.
Since she knew her own fate, she didn't care at all. Letting go and running, she knew she couldn't catch her breath from running. She held onto a tree and stopped to catch her breath. Looking back, she realized that she was already feeling so uncomfortable after running only a few steps.
She pulled out a one yuan coin from her pocket. The bus happened to come by.
In the past, she didn't know that she would die on the operating table, so she always held out hope, thinking that she would live to old age. She was always cautious, afraid to run, afraid to eat stimulating foods, and worked hard to protect herself, while enjoying the care and attention of Delayed Awakening and the others, and experiencing the comfort of being loved.
Now, the feeling of not having to worry about suddenly dying was really peculiar because she had completely let go. Lin Shicha looked at the passing pedestrians outside the bus window and suddenly remembered something, so she took out her phone and sent a text message.
Delayed Awakening received a text message from Lin Shicha while sitting in a taxi.
- Have you agreed to break up?
Delayed Awakening's face turned ashen, and he replied forcefully: If I don't agree, do you want me to wear three green hats?
This was followed by another message: No, you're the last one I've dated, so you don't actually have a green hat on.
Delayed Awakening exploded: And you're actually proud of that???
There was silence for a long time on the other end. Delayed Awakening occasionally glanced at his phone and felt like he was going crazy. What drug did Lin Shicha give him, or maybe it was the fact that she didn't give him anything? They had been together for six months, but she never let him touch her. She wouldn't let him kiss her no matter how much he tried.
Maybe it was because of this?
Delayed Awakening consoled himself this way.
At this time, the screen of his phone lit up again.
- You still like me, right? Can you always like me?